Conforming to the sub-culture.

Hiding my culture.

Not being able to leave.

Tolerating people around you, not liking them.

Saddened to not have made any change.

Being blindly loyal and eventually accepting that this is one sided.

Being fooled into believing I can’t do any better for myself.

Wanting to quit but avoiding making that decision.

Feeling like I keep on making the same mistake.

Accepting to live with stress and the damage it does.

Pretending to like the person created.

Pretending to like my environment.

Accepting this is a part of my life.

Knowing it’s time to break free.

Making new decisions.

Being self aware.

Only looking ahead on new path.

Feeling liberated.

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Poetry night with Lionel

Moving back to the Brisbane area and baby number three growing more independant has brought about a positive change for me.  This change being living close enough to my girlfriends and close enough to an interesting and inspiring arts scene.

As much as I enjoy trips out with my kids, I really value time with good friends experiencing a night at the theatre or an art exhibition. I have found social media very informative and have attended events at GOMA, QPAC and festivals such as the Boomerang festival because of it.  So when Riverbend Poetry series no 3 featuring Lionel Fogarty, popped up on my newsfeed, it drew my interest. I haven’t attended a poetry reading before and either had my girlfriends, however I have collected some of Lionel’s earlier works.

I also had not visited Riverbend Bookshop before but friends who have rave about it, and it is situated on a great street if you love food (like I do).  So after arriving to a full house we listened intently to the first three poets – Krissie Kneen, Jennifer Compton and Alice Night who also sings.  The crowd filling the verandah of Riverbend Bookshop responded warmly.

Then the host introduced, ‘Legendary Lionel.’  Lionel delivered his poetry in his own distinctive style which drew the audience in.   Lionel’s readings were loudly applauded and Lionel appeared to respond positively to this.  

The audience was suprised but enjoyed Lionel taking an impromptu selfie with the hosts and also of the audience. After the official readings were concluded Lionel again held the audiences interest explaining the background and politics relating to the new anthology, ‘The Intervention,’ which includes his work. The host queried, ‘When will Lionel be on Q and A?That would be one popular episode!’

I then purchased Lionel’s new poetry book, ‘Eelahroo Nyah Mőbő-Mőbő’,and was feeling pretty lucky to get my copy signed by the man himself.

Our night was topped off with a wood fired pizza and ice cream. A great night had all round.


(Loved the shirt!)


(Above – my Lionel collection is growing)

The Queensland Poetry Festival was also launched after the readings. Listening to Lionel again has appealed to me. Next outing may be to, ‘Treaty,’ at the JWC.


Mabo Community Day

Today we spent several hours at the North Brisbane Mabo Community Day held at the Zillmere PCYC.  Of course with 3 children I spent some of the time outside watching while the children played bullrush and in the park. I enjoyed watching the kids with their never ending energy and high spirit.

When the kids finally let me go inside, we were welcomed in to where many were seated watching the live bands. I love community events like this especially seeing the enjoyment it brings to our elders.  Having been away from Brisbane for many years I was delighted to see one elder in particular.

When I first moved to Brisbane 20 years ago I lived in an Aboriginal student hostel with Murri and Islanders from all over the country. I met many wonderful people and had many great experiences.

I met this particular elder through the hostel and it was wonderful to see her again.  Having seen this elder as a mother figure I wonder how many students she has had contact with over the years.  It was wonderful to introduce her to my kids.

I am really looking forward to taking kids to future community days like NAIDOC at MusgravePark. Overall we had a great time enjoying the Community day and reminiscing on old times.

New Space

Our home is finally starting to look and feel like home. We moved in just prior (a week) before bub no. 3 arrived and since life has been rather busy.

Deciding to unpack, rearrange or declutter has to be cleverly timed to 1) my husband’s day off 2) baby having a sleep longer than an hour 3) two other children being occupied, and 4) motivation and commitment from us both to get task completed.

This is becoming easier which us a relief. Yesterday husband, kids, dog and I set off on a morning adventure. We walked across the bridge that connects our Island to the mainland and back. It’s not a long walk but I have lived here for 3 years and not walked it before.  Bridge walk was quite exciting for kids as we could spy on the boats underneath us, look for marine life and watch out for the bird life  (in the form of many pelicans who sleep along the lights along the bridge).

Daughter and I continued on walking up to a lovely park on the waterfront while I carried sleeping baby in my babypack.  Once we met up again with 4 year old soccer mad son and husband, time was spent eating lunch,  playing soccer and then playing in the mud on the beach.

It was easy to soak up the goodness of the view of the Glasshouse Mountains, kids playing on the beach and the greenery of the park. Definitely a great start to our Sunday!

Once we returned home bub went to sleep and kids were occupied which meant potential for 1) moving baby into his own room and 2) creating private multifunction study space where the door can close out all distractions!  Husband set up a large desk towards the sliding glass door that overlooks our private courtyard. Both courtyard and yard are slightly overrun with weeds but it is a space that is open and flooded with natural light.

The courtyard also has an overgrown hanging plant that is slightly crooked. When the courtyard gets its renovation (no telling when this will ever occur) this plant was going to be removed. However as I sat at my new space today I noticed a bird fly in and stay in the plant for a few minutes. So I guess the plant (bird home) stays.

So after a day and a half I am loving the new space we have created. I am hoping to use it to write as often as I can in the mornings. I think my daughter has already laid claim to the new space too as a budding little writer.


I am so lucky that I was blessed with a daughter. Being holiday time I am enjoying spending more time with her. Luckily I have had a couple of girls only afternoons with her. We had a great day and evening at the Woodford Folk Festival of course doing her favourite arty things and today saw ‘Annie,’ at the movies.  My mother who is an artist  also arranged an art class for my daughter as a Christmas  present.  I am so aware of my influence over her interests and her future. As my daughter continues to grow, she gives me inspiration to try new things, be healthier and fulfill my goals.